Lemonade

Intuition
I tried to make a home outta you.
But doors lead to trapdoors. A stairway leads to nothing.
Where do you go when you go quiet?
The past and the future merge to meet us here.
What luck. What a fucking curse.

Denial
I tried to change.
Closed my mouth more.
Tried to be soft, prettier.
Less… awake.
Slowly did not speak another word.

Anger  
I think of lovers as trees... growing to and from one another. 
Searching for the same light. 
Why can’t you see me? 
Everyone else can.

Apathy

So what are you gonna say at my funeral now that you’ve killed me?

Here lies the body of the love of my life, whose heart I broke without a gun to my head.  

Her God was listening. 

Her heaven would be a love without betrayal.

Emptiness 
She sleeps all day… dreams of you in both worlds. 

Loss. 

Dear moon, we blame you for floods… for the flush of blood… for men who are also wolves. We blame you for the night, for the dark, for the ghosts.

Every fear, every nightmare anyone has ever had.

Accountability

Did he bend your reflection?
Did he make you forget your own name?
Did he convince you he was a God?
Do his eyes close like doors? 
Are you a slave to the back of his head?

Reformation

Why do you deny yourself heaven?
Why do you consider yourself undeserving?
Why are you afraid of love? 

You think it’s not possible for someone like you.
But you are the love of my life.

Forgiveness
Baptize me… now that reconciliation is possible.
If we’re gonna heal, let it be glorious.
One thousand girls raise their arms.
Do you remember being born?
Are you thankful?

Redemption

You spun gold out of this hard life.
Conjured beauty from the things left behind.
Found healing where it did not live.

Broke the curse with your own two hands.

Pull me back together again the way you cut me in half.
Make the woman in doubt disappear.
Pull the sorrow from between my legs like silk, knot after knot after knot.
The audience applauds… but we can’t hear them.