Sunday, 3 January 2021

I don't know

I don't know what to write.

I don't know how I feel.

But I would like to write how I feel.

I have just finished reading "Just Kids" by Patti Smith and some parts were so relatable.

I have also been reading some old things I wrote years ago, some quotes I saved... some of them still ring true, others I just deleted.

It's so easy to just click "delete" to get rid (hopefully!) of certain memories, sometimes I wish I could do the same with some people.

I'm thinking about quitting social media, for a while at least.

I don't know (again) if it's going to make me feel better, but I do know that I would like to waste less time on it.

Not necessarily to be productive or anything, just to do other things.

Things that I actually like.

Things that don't make me feel like shit.

I can't wait to go back to my apartment.

Can't wait to unpack, put everything in its place, and most importantly, breathe. Relax.

Something I haven't really been able to do lately.

This is not my house anymore.

I'm sorry, but it just isn't.

And this is probably why I cannot even sleep properly at night.

Wow, these were some pretty random thoughts.

Okay.

Bye.