ANTI

Okay so, in case you hadn't noticed, this blog has turned into a collection of things that inspire me, move me, or generally make me feel good.

i got to do things my own way darling will you ever let me


will you ever respect me – no


do things my own way darling

you should just let me


why u aint never let me grow

One of those things is Rihanna's latest album, Anti. It came out about a month ago and I've had it on repeat ever since. It's just a bunch of great songs, rather than proper pop hits, and it's so different from her previous work (not that I didn't like it, but Anti is just on a whole different level).

don’t know why just know i want you

There is one thing you need to know first though: I used to hate Rihanna. I used to be one of those people who talk shit about her just because of the clothes she decided to wear (or not to wear) but fortunately things changed. I don't know why, but a couple of years ago I started listening to her properly and realized how great she - and her music - is.

who cares when it feels like crack

hurtin vibe man it hurts inside when i look you in yo eye

what are you willing to do?
 oh tell me what you're willing to do

(kiss it kiss it better baby)

In the end most tracks are love songs, but not the usual, cheesy ones. For once, they're love songs (written from a female perspective) that I can totally relate to.

you took my heart and my keys and my patience


you took my heart on my sleeve for decoration


you mistaken my love i brought for you for foundation

all that i wanted from you was to give me

something that i never had


something that you've never seen


something that you've never been

I guess the reason I can relate to them is that they're all about past loves, or wanting to be in love, or loving someone but knowing you're a "lone wolf" and that's just never gonna change, no matter how much you would want it to.

there ain't nothin here for me anymore but i don't wanna be alone

There's still room for that good ol' badass Rihanna though:

didn’t they tell you that i was a savage

fuck ya white horse and ya carriage


bet you never could imagine


never told you you could have it

And then you've got my 3 faves: Love On The Brain

must be love on the brain thats got me feeling this way

it beats me black and blue


but it fucks me so good

and i cant get enough


must be love on the brain


and it keeps cursing my name

no matter what i do


i'm no good without you

and i cant get enough

Higher (an instant classic, one of those songs I could get tattooed all over my body): I love the lyrics, the honesty, the strings, the cracking drunken voice, fucking everything. I honestly wish it was 20 minutes long rather than just 2.

this whiskey got me feelin pretty so pardon if i'm impolite


i just really need your ass with me

i'm sorry about the other night


and i know i could be more creative

and come up with poetic lines

but i'm turnt up upstairs and i love you

is the only thing that's in my mind


you take me higher


higher than i've ever been babe

just come over let's pour a drink babe

i hope i ain't calling you too late


too late


you're like my fire

let's stay up late and smoke a jay
i

wanna go back to the old ways


but i'm drunk instead with a full ash tray

with a little bit too much to say

And last but not least, Close To You. I know exactly who I'm thinking about when I listen to this song.

i know you don’t need my protection 
but i’m in love can’t blame me for checking

i love in your direction


hoping that the message goes somewhere close

to you


close to you


like so close


if they hurt you, you wouldn’t find out

if you let me i’d be there by now

close to you